Carrie Monologue
Conversation with Jackie provided me pristine inspiration in addressing issues of heart and mind. Jacqui was so fearless and resilient to play against the conflicts, taking every risk in the matter of love and choices full with certainty and expectation, whereas me, I’m so weak and too cautious regarding those affairs. Am I a coward or I simply want to play safe? I detain Rina, I confine Carrie. What is my objective? To prevent my heart away from devastations? At the same time I was hoping for Sophia, missing her, adoring her while enjoying the pleasure given by Rina, relishing the sensation lugged by Carrie... how I honestly do not see myself. I feel ashamed, embarrassed by my own dishonesty, untruthfulness, weakness, fear. I admit, my friend
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Yes, I know, I would damage their hearts and subsequently, they would hate me, despise me… all the love and affections, adoration, sensation, will be taken away, and definitely they will never see me with the same eyes ever …show more content…
I hugged her and kissed her on the cheek, feeling so happy and thankful for that decision. Words can never reveal my happiness at that moment. It was the luckiest moment in my whole life. Looking at her face, to be with her, to have her, to touch her, all about is the greatest gift, God has granted me.
“I don’t want to lose you. You are the meaning of my life, my first love.” And those words is the witness as I put on the ring on her finger. It looks perfect as the perfection I felt deep inside me.
“I want us to be a family.” I added, holding my Sophia tightly.
“We will be a very happy one, darling. Trust me.” Along with assurance, she replied me warmly, carelessly touch and soothe my heart. The splendour is everywhere. On the wind that touches my skin. In the air that I respire, every breath that I blow, every inhalation that I take, my heart constantly giving thanks to God for answering my lonely prayers, after so long I harboured the feelings, imagining she was to be mine. Through up and down of my youth, in a loop of which I track down along with Rina and Carrie, through the days of loneliness, in the night when my heart screamed, after a long wait, the echoes from the heart has ultimately reflected in the beautiful face of the woman I
Yes, I know, I would damage their hearts and subsequently, they would hate me, despise me… all the love and affections, adoration, sensation, will be taken away, and definitely they will never see me with the same eyes ever …show more content…
I hugged her and kissed her on the cheek, feeling so happy and thankful for that decision. Words can never reveal my happiness at that moment. It was the luckiest moment in my whole life. Looking at her face, to be with her, to have her, to touch her, all about is the greatest gift, God has granted me.
“I don’t want to lose you. You are the meaning of my life, my first love.” And those words is the witness as I put on the ring on her finger. It looks perfect as the perfection I felt deep inside me.
“I want us to be a family.” I added, holding my Sophia tightly.
“We will be a very happy one, darling. Trust me.” Along with assurance, she replied me warmly, carelessly touch and soothe my heart. The splendour is everywhere. On the wind that touches my skin. In the air that I respire, every breath that I blow, every inhalation that I take, my heart constantly giving thanks to God for answering my lonely prayers, after so long I harboured the feelings, imagining she was to be mine. Through up and down of my youth, in a loop of which I track down along with Rina and Carrie, through the days of loneliness, in the night when my heart screamed, after a long wait, the echoes from the heart has ultimately reflected in the beautiful face of the woman I