Personal Narrative: Major Anxiety Attacks

Have you ever felt so defeated that you truly believe that it would be easier to give up and end it all? That is how I felt when I had major anxiety attacks everyday, severe depression, and self body image issues.
It all started when I was in middle school, I was an average student in middle school with decent grades. I was a very outgoing and bubbly person. I just joined a dance team in my neighborhood and was excited to be something I loved. The most important part was that I was happy. Then my dad left for Afghanistan, that's when everything changed.

My dad left to work in Afghanistan as a contractor when I was in eighth grade. He was a motivator for me when it came to school and when he left that left with him. After my dad left my …show more content…
I started not doing my school working and getting poor grades. This made me stressed out and created anxiety problems. I would experience panic attack at least once a week and it would take over my whole day. I would not be able to do anything or go anywhere when I had a attack. As my mom continuously harassed me at home I became emotionally weakened by it. Starting to not fight back against what she was telling me but to accept it and let it haunt me till I believed it was true. I started to feel very sad all the time and staying to myself in school and dance. I started to lose weight because of my mom's hurtful words saying I was eating too much and was overweight. I stopped eating as much food because of how it started to make me feel. Every Time I had a bit to eat I felt worse and worse about myself and how I looked. Everything I was doing and feeling just got worse. Fell more into my depression and my eating habits became more harmful. After a year my dad came back. He didn’t really know about everything that was going on with me and my mom. …show more content…
Soon after I went on medication to help me concentrate and control my depression. It resulted in me getting better grades and feeling better about myself. I got my confidence back that I needed to become the person I once was. This experienced helped me learn to always work hard and to never give up on myself. I also learned that when there is bad, there will be good. That when you believe it would be better to end everything, that it always turns around and makes you a stronger person. I also learned that everyone should love their body. That everyone should take care and treasure their body that they were born in. This has made me a better student. Changing my views on my self worth and talent I have in school. It has make me work harder for what I want. Taught me to never give up on myself. It has also given me a new perspective on life and how to look at it in a new and positive way. My lowest point in my life has made me a stronger and persistent person and