Today I am reflecting on something I used to say to regarding my lack of female friends. I often blamed this on how dramatic women are, and explained I couldn’t handle the emotions on top of my own. I realize now that it was wrong of me to stereotype all women, and use dramatic as a loaded word. As a bi-sexual, who is equally attracted to both figures physically, I also found that this was a common answer when I am asked now about why I didn't settle down with a woman. Now I realize we, as women, are just more comfortable sharing our emotions be it good or bad. I've grown up seeking masculine traits even within relationships of the same gender. I’m trying not to judge myself harshly and use this revelation to learn to explain myself better. I feel the best way to describe myself from now on is I am attracted to females sexually but not feminine traits. I will have to think a little more about this later, maybe with some feedback.
Gender Journal Entry Ten
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I decided that today I would share with him all the amazing things I am learning through this journal and class. I began to share about the epiphany I had regarding my dad’s family, in the hopes maybe he would understand the strained relationship, and gain insight on me. He instantly responded that he did not wish to speak about the topic, or about school with me again. Throughout the past week, I have been realizing that my boyfriend feels such pressure to be masculine at home. I’m realizing how much this contributes to our communication problems, and even to the way we see our futures. I am in school and he left school, maybe that’s why it is a hard subject, and potentially an issue of pride. When you discuss a topic in class it can feel far away, and masculinity was something I felt that way about. Who knew it was impacting me without knowing it, and I look forward to becoming more educated on the