An experience that taught me something about life
We should appreciate more and be grateful for what we have and what we are. I will take this lesson with me for the rest of my life. I was 19 years old when I discovered I was pregnant. I was so scared to tell my parents, so I made my boyfriend, now husband deliver the news. They were a little upset in the beginning, but later they ended up accepting it and loving the idea of being grandparents. I was really happy, buying baby clothes, setting up the baby’s room, and etc. Fortunately, my baby was born healthy, and that made my family and I very happy. The problem started a week after my daughter was born. I started getting depressed, hating life and hating myself. I didn’t want to hold my baby, or even breastfeed her. I was feeling down, thinking I couldn’t be a mother so young. I thought it was really hard. The baby crying all the time and having to wakeup on the middle of the night to breastfeed was terrible for me. A friend of mine invited my family for a party at her house. My boyfriend, my daughter who was 2 months old and I went to the party. When we got there, I saw a girl in a wheel chair holding a baby in her arms. I started talking to her, and she told me all her life story. She had an accident when she was 20 years old and since the accident she couldn’t walk anymore. She was 27 years old when I met her. She told me she had a one-night stand and got pregnant. She was living and taking care of her new born baby all by herself. All my post partum depression went away immediately after she finished telling me her story. All I can think of is how is it that a person with so many difficulty can be so happy and at ease with the idea of having a baby. I left that party feeling like I was a terrible person. I thought to my self, “I am perfectly abled person, I can walk and I had all my families support”. I was complaining about such small things, while that woman was very happy and content with just being able to take care of her baby while in a wheel